I wish I owned InuYasha, but I don’t.
Eclipse of Hearts
Chapter 1: Prelude to Darkness
The light outside was dimming slowly. The sun was beginning to set again.
Another day had gone by so slowly that it seemed like the universe was conspiring against him, and Kagome was still gone. Nothing had changed. Inuyasha had still failed to save her, and with every passing day he felt the emotions consume him more and more. The love for Kagome, the anger for his potential failure, the guilt from possibly failing yet another woman, and the fear of losing her, it all ripped through his body like wildfire as if it was happening now.
But most of all, the weakness he’d felt. Not a damn day passed by that Inuyasha didn’t die a little more inside.
He walked through the dying meadow shrouded with negativity up to Kaede’s village, then to the house Kagome would likely never leave from. Miroku was already in there, comforting Sango yet again as they said their daily prayers in hopes Kagome would once again flutter her eyes open again. Sadly, to no prevail. He hadn’t seen her big, brown, forever worrying eyes in almost a year and he missed it more than he’d like to admit to even himself. For now, it was all he could do not to breakdown at the very thought of the incident, so he continued his façade. Continued to act as if he had accepted it and isolated himself as per usual. And, for the most part, people believed it. Miroku and Sango on the other hand, would have no part of it. They knew him too well to believe his fake sarcasm and lies. Shippou was too young, but even he had a small understanding. And, to be completely honest, it annoyed him to a great extent. No longer did he want to be understood or cared about to the point where he could possibly hurt another again.
He didn’t want to care anymore.
Inuyasha turned towards the woods and the tree he’d been pinned to for a number of years until Kagome had released him. With the wind whipping through his hair, his eyes intently focused on dodging trees and his destination, but his mind in a completely different place, Inuyasha pressed on. Within minutes, Inuyasha had stopped at his destination and jumped onto one of the trees more sturdy branches.
It was the only place he felt even somewhat ease.
The problems and the emotions that plagued his unstable mind seemed to blow away for fractions of a second at a time. The fear would then creep up slowly and obliterate his peaceful world.
Damn it! Why couldn’t I have been stronger? Why couldn’t I have gotten there on time and saved her! Instead…I failed her. InuYasha’s mind screamed at him, threatening to punish him with tears.
“Kagome…If only I could go back…If only there was a way I could save you now… I promise I will. Or I will die trying.” No more could he hold it back. Inuyasha slammed his fist into the tree and let a few precious tears escape his amber eyes. Teeth clenched, body wrecked with too many extremely intense emotions at once, his mind fled to the last memory of Kagome he had.
The Betrayal.
The Incident.
—Flashback
A Year before.
“SIT BOY!!” A, once again, extremely angry Kagome bellowed out at a stubborn Inuyasha. Long, raven colored hair blew carelessly in the wind and her big, brown, eyes gazed infuriated at InuYasha, who was now writhing on the ground in pain.
“Damn it Kagome! What the hell was that for?” Inuyasha snapped out at Kagome.
“Inuyasha, you know EXACTLY why I did that! You can’t stop me from going to my own time if I want to!” Storming off towards the well, Kagome proceeded to hurriedly jump in before InuYasha could stop her once again. The cool blue light enveloped her floating body for seconds until she felt her shoes, at last, touch the dirt ground. Climbing out of the old well she thought. Inuyasha…how can you be so sensitive at time, and then so utterly destructively rude the rest of the time? For once could you just CALM DOWN?
The snow blew frigidly through the crack in the door leading to modern day Japan and made Kagome shiver for a moment. Sprinting from the well room, to her bedroom so as to not stay in the cold longer than she had to, she flopped straight on her bed to contemplate the days’ events. Search for the jewel shard. Fight with Inuyasha. Fight ridiculous looking demons. Fight with Inuyasha. Ride on Kirara with Sango because of a fight with Inuyasha. Fight with Inuyasha. Sadly, that’s what most of her days consisted of.
Fights with Inuyasha. About small thing, big things, Kikyou, Koga, Shippou, The Jewel shards, food, stupid things, and whatever else pushed either of the twos’ buttons ever so slightly, they would fight about. It seems like a never ending chain of fighting that could only be changed by two things. Kagome’s leaving forever or an extremely drastic change in the both of them. A revelation of sorts. Kagome sighed at the negative thoughts. She knew she would think differently once he came back for her, yet she always caught herself cursing him before she went to bed.
This brought her to the topic she feared most. Kikyou. No matter how much she tried to figure it out, she could never understand why Inuyasha couldn’t get over the girl. She couldn’t deny that Kikyou was beautiful, strong, intelligent…oh wait.
“I…I’m none of those things…“Kagome’s eyes began to tear up a small bit. Why can’t I be strong, beautiful, smart, and be able to stand on my own like she does? I guess that’s why I’ll never compare…
“Inuyasha will be back soon and all will be well. It’s not like he doesn’t always come back…I know I can count on him always…” And with that, the raven haired beauty fell into a deep sleep brought on by extreme exhaustion and, let’s face it, a lot of sadness.
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A/N: This only allows me to post 6000 characters so… yeah. There will be many posts. ~ Nanami
